So in episode 8 of Street Fighter II V, still well within the show's early "incredibly homo-erotic" phase . . .
Ryu gets sent to prison on false charge.
NO GUYS. We're not gonna have a soap dropping scene or anything.Instead we're gonna show Ryu's treatment at the hands of this sadistic warden.
Ryu is soon shirtless and strung up from the rafters.
As the warden reveals one of his favorite tools for breaking in new prisoners.
A whip! He's a hands-on kinda guy.
And he does enjoy his work.
The whip cracks into Ryu's exposed and vulnerable flesh.
And the warden gets PISSED OFF when Ryu doesn't howl from the first strike.
So he . . .
Whips him again . . .
and . . .
. . . again . . .
All as Ryu grits his teeth and takes the pain, refusing to give the evil pig the satisfaction of hearing him cry out. It's a matter of pride.
It's a dark scene, and the recycled footage of Ryu writhing in his chains goes on for some time. It affected me a lot as a kid, because it was my first glimpse into what would later be a pretty big S&M fetish. Something about a strong hero helpless and yet defiant as his body is beaten really, uh, spoke to me.
A bit too extreme though, for both past and present me. Would've been way hotter if it was just a spanking rather than a whipping. u_u
By the end, his muscular body is covered in scars from the whipping he's endured.
Afterward he's left to recover in his cell.
Poor adolescent me. At the time, I was really struggling with my personal inclinations. Liking men I was never really bothered by, but . . . I didn't just like them, I got off on seeing them in pain!
How could I enjoy seeing people hurt? That wasn't me. Even as a kid I was a pacifist. And yet I had all these fantasies of basically abusing men and raping them against their will. 'What the hell was wrong with me?' I thought. Ryu was a good guy. He didn't deserve to be put through such tortures, any more than the friends and classmates who I also secretly lusted over and imagined abusing.
It's so hard to reconcile different parts of ourselves, isn't it? The mental, the ethical, the sexual, the body, the soul . . . How do you know which parts to listen to? Which parts are right?
Anyway, uh, the moral of the story is I grew up and decided that as long as these were only fictional men anyway, then no harm no foul! Oh, and lots of guys like being abused, so I should just find one of them if I want to indulge in my sadistic side. (but the key part of the fantasy is that they don't like it . . . Argh!)


















































