9/19/12

Full Disclosure


So I've actually gotten a few messages from my last post, which is nice! In the interests of full disclosure however, I feel like I should paint a more complete picture of myself and what I'm looking for. Everyone who comes here just looking for porn . . . ignore this post! We'll get back to you momentarily.

About me: 28 year old nerd who loves anime, video games, sci-fi and fantasy, manga, and comic books. You probably knew that stuff already though, right?

Some stuff you may not know is, I'm currently living in New York in a house with my two brothers (who get along with each other) and my two cats (who do NOT get along with each other). I am the least judgmental person who I, personally, know. I have flat feet. I don't currently have a car, but my full-time retail slave job is within walking distance so it's not a big deal to me. I am also hopeless romantic.

This is what I looked like a year ago:

. . . N--not bad?

What you CAN'T SEE in these pictures: my bad posture, my ridiculously skinny arms, my growing bald spot :0

And this is what I look like more recently:

Do not worry! I am not too attached to the ugly beard. The hat, however, stays.

Most days I'm kinda afraid to leave the house because then the public can SEE me.

Sex stuff! This is where most will lose interest, I'm afraid. You see, despite running a gay porn blog for umpteen years, I'm pretty much asexual when it comes to my own body. Gay sex just sorta . . . bores me most of the time, unless there's something else I can focus on during it. This doesn't mean that I don't crave affection though. Hugging, kissing, cuddling . . . emotional stuff . . . that's pretty much the stuff I'm after here. I'm just not really into the 'normal' sexual aspects of a relationship.

Not that I don't have a sex-drive. Far from it. What I AM into is pretty much the kinkier stuff. Spanking is my biggest fetish. 99% of the time when I jerk off, it's to fantasies of a powerful bara man getting turned over a knee, his pants roughly shoved down, and his bare butt getting slapped and spanked until he's howling for it to stop. That is what my penis likes! Related kinks are stuff like power play, humiliation, and bondage. Any prospective dudes should like that stuff too . . . if only to understand what I'm into. And of course it'd be nice to both be turned on by the same stuff. ^^

So yeah.

What I'm looking for: Someone affectionate and caring, firstly. A spanko. The geekier, the better. A gaymer. I love to show new shows and games to people, and if they can appreciate them (and even show me stuff as well) then that'd be swell! Someone open-minded. Someone out of the closet. Someone who tips their waiters. Someone who doesn't mind putting up with my insecurities (and I have a lot) and who is, above all, sincere and genuine.

In short, a nice gay furry, spanko, geek!

Yeah, there's lots of those just roaming around. -_-

What I'm NOT looking for: Casual hookups (I've got internet RPs for those :P). A Republican (:X). A body-builder (not that that would be BAD, just that I'm not really interested in outward appearance. Just because I like bara doesn't mean my SO has to be bara). Someone who lives really far away (sorry guys! Both my previous relationships have been long-distance, and both refused opportunities to meet up when we could so I'm a bit leery of them now).

And . . . that's that I guess.

32 comments:

  1. What's your astrological sign? I'm just a little curious. You do seem like a good guy but I live in Arizona so I sadly couldn't see you.

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  2. im with someone atm but god if i lived closer you sound like someone who would be really good friends with =D but you have great idea of self and very open about wants and needs and thats a great thing when you find the right guy theyll be lucky ^^ but like i said would be awesome to hang out with you if lived closer =D

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    1. Thanks! Yeah, I'm trying to be open as possible about what I want and what I'm looking for. Too bad they only appeal to about 0.00001% of the population. xD;

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  3. Hehehe... I think you're beautiful... I love nerds and when I read some parts I really identify with you... just some parts.

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  4. I'm affectionate, love gayming, reading, I'm always the person to share shows and games I like, so I grinned reading that. =^-^=

    I'm abstinent and asexual myself, so I related to just about everything you said.

    It is extremely difficult to date locally because of this, and as you mentioned, long distance relationships are at most, flakey and quick to end when a meetup is scheduled. (Personal experience with this, lucky us lol)

    I wish we lived nearer ;) Taurus and Cancer's are said to be good together.

    I wish you the best in your search! That special guy is out there. xoxo
    ~Nicky~

    P.s. Never lose the hat! :3 it's adorable.

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    1. Thanks Nicky! Yeah, the asexual part is what's held me back too. There's always that pressure to perform in the gay community. And it just always feels awkward for me to explain to people that while I LOVE porn and forced sex/domination fantasies, I don't actually want to bump any uglies myself.

      Good luck on your own search!

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  5. Wow! I'm fully impressed! A lot of people hide behind anonymity (especially on the internet) but its really nice to be able to put a face onto the man who inspires so many ;)

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    1. Meh, I've posted my face here before, lol

      Just too bad I don't also have a rockin' bod to post like yours! ;P

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    2. LOL thanks bud, its a working in progress! but getting there with my bod - anyone can do it if they put there mind to it!

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  6. I like the beard! And I really like the hat! And I like to think I match that description pretty well. But alas! I live quite far away. :(

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  7. What are the odds, I'm in the tri-state area. Welp, Philadelphia has a good bit of nerdy guys who are all for the cuddling, romance and affection. If some hide here there must be gems all over the place, hang in there!

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  8. hello, my name is Logan and i live in florida, i am about to graduate and planning to go to new york for masters degree. I am 24 year old and a typical blond curly hair surfer xD. I love love video games, and that may be my master degree title.
    my name is eternaldusk@me.com
    and another note, if you want another geek, check out geek4geek :) its a great site for geeks!

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    1. Geek4geek is probably a really good idea.

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    2. send me a email if you like :) ill send a face pic.

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  9. Aw, if I lived close instead of in a different country I would totally date you.

    -Timemonkey

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  10. So many people that live so far away that totally fit your description! (Me included) Life's a Bitch! :/ Good Luck and definitely don't give up. We're out there.

    ~NerdCandy

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  11. Well, the man of my life is also asexual. He's vegetarian too. Thaht's what I like the most about him I guess.

    Well I don"t like th beard, but I like the hat. I wanted the same, and found one in a store, but no money. when I got back, it had been sold ... What am 1 going to wear this winter ?

    PS : are the fruits raspberries or blackberries ?

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    1. Damn hat snatchers! You gotta watch out!

      And they were delicious blackberries. :]

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  12. Hi!

    From reading your post(s), I too have that feeling and I can relate to most of the things you have said. It may seem difficult in many occasions, but if you have the will to keep going, to not give up, then you will succeed.

    I believe that you are a great person, and I wish you good luck. I have a feeling you will find someone. (:

    - Alistair from Amiskwaciwaskahikan, Alberta, Canada

    P.S. Gl with "Spotty". My hair is beginning to thin recently. :P








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  13. Man You just described what im looking for and what i love XD too bad im in Chicago and im in no way good looking enough for ya, Good Luck on your search

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  14. Man You just described what im looking for and what i love XD too bad im in Chicago and im in no way good looking enough for ya, Good Luck on your search

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  15. Hi SoupGoblin

    Thanks for putting up your face pic! I think you look handsome, especially with the beard. Its cool being a nerd - Steve Jobs (RIP) and Bill Gates look like nerds (or geeks) and I think they are totally cool. I live in Singapore and I read your blog regularly. I'm Asian and I'm currently attached to a "bear" who reminds me a lot of Doraemon or Kungfu Panda - he is absolutely adorable and bara! You are a great blogger and I hope you find your special someone, someday. All the best dude!! :)

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  16. Hey, I live in Germany, and I've been following your blog for like a couple of years (because it is awesome, you know).

    Joining the others, I find it really brave of you to open up and talk about your feelings! And to show your photos. This is cool because other guys around the world who read your blog and are going through similar stuff can see that they are not alone. So I wish you good luck, and whenever you feel down you can just watch a bit of this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PYisN9IEcZg :)

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  17. I wish you would just show me your penis. -3-

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  18. Heya buddy! I think you're outrageously cute~
    Unfortunately, I live in Texas, but I just wanted to let you know that people who share your interests exist! :3
    If you ever need or want to chat, you can message BFMHIS@gmail.com

    -Your happy subscriber, Bryan

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  19. Jersey City here! So like RIGHT across the river from NYC. Not looking for a bf (engaged here) but if you're looking for a fellow gaymer to hang with (and hell... talk all about spanking and tentacles with) then look no further! ^^

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  20. Hey there... randomly stumbled across your blog a couple days ago and then stumbled across this posting. Are you still lookin' for love... or whatever? I live in New York and do have a thing for cute geeky guys ;)

    Not much of a gaymer but I'm sure we share other interests.

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